An Open Letter to Whoever Just Passed by My House

Dude, I could hear your bass blasting while sitting on my (borrowed) loveseat. My ears still hurt. You are deaf, or going to be very soon. I think I hear you (or one of your friends) again, just not as loud. I'm listening to my online radio station, rather quietly (if I'm not at my laptop, I can't hear it). My jaw hurts. If you loosened my fillings, I think you owe me, and my insurance, money. If only I knew who you were. And I think you go through my neighborhood quite often, because I hear that same pounding bass regularly. If you want to be deaf, I can't stop you (nor do I want to), but why are you trying to make me deaf too? I have at least three panes of glass between me and you, not to mention lots of house, and my ears still hurt. Oh, and why did you stop so long today? Was there a cop watching you? Please lower the volume of your stereo system while you are in the neighborhood, since I'm guessing you are a neighbor of mine.

Thank you for listening.

Happy Halloween! I Have No Candy to Give Out

So, tonight, when the kids try knocking on our door (it will happen at least once, it did last year, even though our porch light is off), they will get nothing from us. If my niece comes by (which I doubt will happen, but it could), I've got some of my personal candy she can have, but I only have 1 Reese's Peanut Butter Cup, 4 fun size M&Ms (2 plain, 2 peanut), and 4 dark chocolate Mounds. So I really don't have any candy for other kids (and I don't particularly want to share what little candy I have with my niece either). I'm not normally selfish, but right now chocolate is my friend.

It is COLD here right now. So cold that I don't want to go back out tonight if I don't have to (stupid house design, making me go into the garage to do laundry). Oh, and the movies D was going to return are still here, because he didn't have any clean pants (part of me wants to point out that he can do laundry too, but he's in bed asleep, so I don't want to make that point yet). So, his plan is now for the two of us to go to return the movies and rent some more for this next weekend (we rent 2 today, we get one free). I wanted him to return them while I was at school so that I wouldn't have a chance to watch any of them again, but now I just have to be strong to avoid that.

I don't want to do dishes today, I want to spend the rest of today getting warm (I don't know why I'm so cold, but I am). And unloading and then reloading the dishwasher doesn't really seem like a good way to get warm.

Last night, the caffeine in the Midol I took yesterday must have kept me awake (maybe because I took more than I normally would have?). I got to sleep after 3 am and had to get up at 9. I woke up 5 minutes before the alarm went off. And for some reason, my laptop had not been put into sleep mode (or else D pulled it up for unknown reasons).

Tomorrow, I will probably put my Sociology paper up, with perhaps a few minor changes (I have to change the names to protect the innocent and guilty alike, I promised that in my first post).

Well, I'm going to go find a movie to watch (I'm trying not to be tempted by V for Vendetta again. But it's sitting there calling out to be watched again. Must get soon!)

TTFN!

Now for the Sane Post of the Day

Okay, now that the Midol has kicked in and I'm not in pain anymore (I have one close by, just in case), I am back to being sane. It helps that my sink no longer has standing water in it. I did two loads of dishes today, and will be doing at least 1 more tomorrow (at least, that's the plan right now). Then I should only need to do one load on Wednesday, with D hopefully cleaning my stoneware, and I'll have clean dishes again. And this time, I will make sure to keep up with our dishes as we cook, just like I've meant to each time I get all my dishes clean. Of course, it didn't help that we used like half the dishes that need to be cleaned this time in one dinner making session.

Oh, tomorrow, I'll be finishing off The Case for Christ. On Wednesday, I'm going to start reading Frugal Families. D reminded me that I didn't have to stop reading at ten pages, that it was just a minimum, but I think I'll be sticking with 10 pages a day for a little while longer.

I've packed up my articles for my Government project to take with me and read tomorrow when I'm normally in that class. I figure it gets me doing something that I need to do for the class, and this way I'm working on the project to get closer to being ready to present. After all, I've only got 2 weeks to figure out what I'm going to say, type up notes for what I'm going to say, and do a Works Referenced (or something like that) for what I studied. Hopefully, I'll have enough for all the valid points of view.

Well, I just thought I'd let everyone know that I'm back to being sane, and I hope my insanity was at least amusing, if realistic.

TTFN!

Things That Are Pissing Me Off Today

Or Why I Want To Crawl Into Bed Until Tomorrow

1. I have cramps that 1 dose of Midol isn't fully killing (which means I'm not pregnant, again). But I love one of the workers at my chiropractor's office, because she gave me something cold to put on my stomach while getting therapy and some Midol and water when I got done (which killed that pain, but I need to take more Midol now). She sympathized, and it helped me get through the worst part of the pain.

2. The pipes in my house SUCK! Half of my kitchen sink is clogged, and we can't fix it without buying stuff to get rid of the clog (at least until we buy more drain cleaner... again). Do you know how hard it is to wash dishes (or even get them in the dishwasher) when you only have half a sink? Especially when it's full of dishes? And I'm not going to start about the tub drainage, because this post isn't about that (although, that pisses me off too)

3. The fact that I have almost no appetite when I have cramps, but forget that every month. It sucks, and I only I only forget because it's not even a weekly thing.

4. I forgot to pull my cell phone out of the bedroom with me this morning, so I ended up bothering D while he was in bed (which is also why I can't be in bed where I want to be right now). And I had to get the charger, because it was down to one bar on the battery.

5. I have school tomorrow, but my Government class isn't meeting. This is not a bad thing, but it's a waste of 2 hours of my time tomorrow, because it's a waste of gas to come home (so I won't) and I have all that time with little to do, other than a) homework or b) relaxing. I'm debating whether I should take the articles I'm already supposed to have gone through with me or if I should take the library book I need to get back to reading with me. The articles will probably win, because the library book is just something for fun and the Government project is more important.

6. I don't want to do homework or housework, I want to relax and lay down and get the cramping muscles to stop hurting. But I'm a responsible person, and this stuff needs to get done, so I'm doing it anyway.

7. AIM keeps trying to get me to download the PREVIEW of their new messenger service. I don't want to download the preview, I'm happy with my current service. And I can't seem to turn it off. I want it to die right now. I'm not up for dealing with this right now. I wish I could crawl into bed!

I'm off to do more dishes, hopefully this time I'll actually make a noticeable dent in the stack of dishes to be done.

TTFN!

An Open Letter to My Body and the World

Dear body,
I'd ask how you are, but I know, because I can feel you. You are doing fairly well, little pain, but not looking forward to the dishes I'm going to make us do tomorrow. I just thought I'd let you know once again that it's okay to get pregnant. I know that you don't want the aches and pains of pregnancy and birth, but if you actually want a baby of your own to hold, you have to get pregnant. Get over that, because you know that is what we want. So get pregnant. The sooner that happens, the sooner you get pregnancy and birth over with.

World, world, world. I haven't forgotten that I put you on the open letter list. You are crazy and would put fears into my head and doubts that I should never have kids. That my kids deserve a better world before they are born. You are right that they deserve better, but you won't really ever be better, so why should I wait for you? I can't change you by myself and I know that you won't get better on your own. But my kids can help me make you a better place. Besides, you've been messed up since before I was born so why should that stop me from bringing my children into you just because bad things happen? I refuse to let you make my decision for me.

Anyway, you both are now appraised of where I stand.

Love,
Me

P.S.: If I find out I'm pregnant after writing this, I'm going to laugh, because life likes to do that sort of thing to me.

TTFN!

Roughly Post 200

Wow, I've made it to number 200 (I believe). And I'm still finding stuff to talk about, because life gives me topics most days.

Okay, so D and I finished watching the movies we rented today, which basically means that we watched Red Sonja. Then I decided to watch V for Vendetta again. That movie is so going on my Christmas list. I'm oddly fascinated by it. D and I are also probably going to get the comic book (it's actually a book) that the movie was based on. I surprised him by the amount of research I did on it, because I was telling him about some of the differences between the book and the movie.

I like the time change in October, because I get more sleep that way. And then I spend a week being ready for stuff early. It's nice. Not so nice that I would keep doing it if I could stop the time change in spring though, because I really hate that one. I miss the sleep, and it seems to take forever to adjust.

Back on the subject of movies, I'm watching The Matrix while writing this post. It's one of the movies that I find strangely fascinating. I love the end, where Neo saves the day and realizes that he is The One. And oddly, the same actor is in The Matrix as is in V for Vendetta (Hugo Weaving playing much different characters though).

D and I discussed kids again today, a rather common topic lately. He pointed out that he would still be fine without kids, but since I want them, he'll be more than happy to be a dad. He also mentioned that when we have one, he'll want to have more to play with, and to give them someone to play with too. I like the idea, because I want more than one child. He's just reminding me that I need to be patient about when we have kids, because it will happen someday.

Since we don't have cable anymore (or even TV, really), I've been watching more of the DVDs that we've bought, but haven't watched. I don't remember when we got The Matrix, sometime when it was on sale, but this is the first time I've watched it since we got it. I think it's the first time I've watched the movie since I married D, which is odd, because I was obsessed with watching it after I saw the last half hour the first time I saw it. Each time, I root for Neo to do something different, but I know that he'll do the same thing each time. And I don't blame him for his choices, because I would have made the same ones in his shoes (except, I don't hack computers, so that part isn't really possible).

Okay, I think this is a long enough post to celebrate posting so much.

TTFN!

I Am Chatty Tonight

Okay, I've only got whoever reads this blog to talk to, because D is in bed (and has been for hours now) and it's really to late to call anyone. I plan on putting up my Sociology paper when I get done with it. I've got to work on that tomorrow with D. I'm almost done, but I've got one paragraph that I keep sticking on. I will probably end up changing the whole paragraph to be about something else, because it's just not working how it's written. On the plus side for me, the paper is double spaced, so it's really only a page worth of writing (and mostly done writing at that).

I'm ready to have kids. Not just to provide me with funny and cute stories to put on here (which will probably get me more internet traffic than just family), but also because I long to be a mom. I know that it's not easy. I've acted as a mother before (which I'm not going to get into tonight, but I did practically raise my siblings for a while). I like being around kids, and acting like a big kid myself. On the plus side, D finds it somewhat cute, usually, when I act like a big kid (depending on what I'm excited about). I want a child to teach and to learn from. I think kids can teach their parents almost as much as parents teach their kids. While at my niece's birthday party, I got to see an adorable little boy who I think was about 5 months old (I didn't ask to hold him, because I didn't know his parents and I thought it would be rude). He was adorable, and it reminded me that I want one. D wants to have kids to, but I think part of it is the dream of a little girl that I've sold him on. He's wrapped around the finger of that little girl even though she's only a dream right now. And as soon as I'm pregnant, and willing to share the news, I'll be sure to post about it.

I'm ready to see how good a dad that D will be. I already know that he'll be wonderfully patient with our kids, because he's fairly good at being patient with me and with our niece when we see her. And he wants to make lots of money so that when we have kids, we can give them most of what they want. They do need to learn the value of money, and it doesn't hurt for them to hear the word no either (most of them want boundaries, even though they will test those boundaries).

So, I guess I really just wanted to say to world that I'm ready to be a mom. Although, I don't know how much of the pregnancy stuff I'm looking forward to (okay, it's mostly the labor part I'm dreading... when it happens, someday). Quick question though, why did my family feel it okay to share in front of me the stories of giving birth even though I wasn't pregnant (or even dating someone) at the time? Okay, they were telling someone else, but they could have kicked me out of the room first. The main thing I got from those stories was the idea that an epidural would be wonderful when giving birth (oddly something D and I talked about while dating, he was encouraging me to get one when I had kids, especially if we were going to get married and create said kids. Is it any wonder why I love this man?).

Well, I should go to bed, because I need to get sleep before tomorrow (or today), I guess.

TTFN!

Finally, a Good Night's Sleep

So, last night, I went to bed about 12:45 (over an hour earlier than normal) and was asleep by around 1:00, not bad, since I usually take much longer to fall asleep. I didn't get up until around 10:00 this morning, so that is 9 hours of mostly uninterrupted sleep (and I always fell right back asleep after I was woken up). So, I've spent today feeling much more human than I had been. I had D and a teddy bear named after him to keep the bad dreams at bay (normally, the bear is all I need).

Last night, after watching V for Vendetta, D went to bed and I watched The Good, the Bad and the Ugly. Today, D watched Resident Evil while I slept this morning and we watched Inside Man not too long after I got up. I have A Fistful of Dollars in the DVD player, should I decide to watch it tonight (I know it comes before the one I watched last night, but I wanted to watch The Good, the Bad and the Ugly first, because I had tried to watch it before, but hadn't gotten to see all of it). I'm still debating whether or not I want to right now. We also have Red Sonja to watch. I have no idea what it's about, I just know that it stars California Governor Arnold S. D really wanted to see it, and I didn't care about how many movies we rented when we went in yesterday to rent them.

I think I will watch my movie, so I'm off to do that.

TTFN!

Lack of Sleep Strikes Again

Last night, I didn't get a good night's sleep again. This has lead to a rather interesting day. D has cracked a couple of jokes that I've missed (although, I think he was glad about me missing one of them, he said it stinks). I've also had my memory working strangely all day. I would forget something and then remember again a little while later. That's not fully normal for me (but it does happen from time to time). It also probably has made me say or do some rather interesting things.

D and I have rented several movies, and are spending some time this weekend watching them. We've started with V for Vendetta. I like the story, and it seems eerily possible if the world isn't careful.

I'm going to enjoy the movie now.

TTFN!

Exhausted? Check

So, I didn't actually get any more sleep this morning, but I gave it a good try (50 minutes laying there wishing for sleep). I got a lot accomplished though, which is kind of an up side to missing sleep. I went through my notes for Government (test review was today) to make sure that I had almost everything I needed in there. I found out my finals schedule (Business Law and Sociology on Tuesday, Government on Thursday of finals week). I wrote down what office I had to go to for graduation stuff (Advisement/Counseling). I balanced my checkbook, and helped with our budget some (okay, I told D how much certain things were, but it helps us to know this stuff). I went to school and then went to the office to put my name on the list of potential graduates this fall semester. Then I came home and tried to take a nap. I was wide awake then, but about an hour later I was able to go lay down and rest for at least an hour. And since I've been up, I've worked some on my government project. So, while I'm exhausted (and I am), I have done a lot today. And I stayed away from caffeine (I learned that lesson last time I was tired at school).

So, if I seem grouchy to anyone, that is why. I've been good, I get to be a little grouchy if I want. And I want a good night's sleep tonight, so if I'm a little grouchy before then, deal with it.

TTFN.

Insomnia Strikes Again

From what I've heard, and I really need to do some research on insomnia (I'll look at any links anyone wants to send me), insomnia is not just difficulty falling asleep, but difficulty staying asleep. For me, it always seems to strike when I want to get some sleep. This morning, I got up at 6:00 am to empty my bladder (I know you really don't need to know this, but I have to be honest about why I got up). I then got myself something to drink (I get up at 9, so a little juice in my system isn't really a problem). Then I lay back down to try to sleep. 30 minutes later, I realize that my brain has decided that I only need 4 hours of sleep tonight, and get up, because it's bugging me to look some stuff up (as if I couldn't do that in the hour and a half I have between getting up and going to school). I'm tired, but I know that if I lay down, I'm unlikely to get any more sleep. I hate this, and I don't want to start taking something for it. I think my subconscious is worried that I'll have another dream like I did yesterday, which featured someone I don't want in my dreams. I've also noticed that insomnia seems to start the process of me feeling blue, so I really don't want to miss sleep like this. The rain is bad enough, I don't need insomnia to add to the mix.

I'm going to go attempt to get another hour of sleep.

TTYL.

I Dislike the Rain

Okay, I don't really dislike the rain too much (I don't love it, but I can deal with it), but lately it seems like every time it rains, my sinuses decide to revolt and I feel awful for a day. This, of course, makes me think that I should move somewhere were rain doesn't happen as often as it does in Oklahoma. I'm tired of feeling icky and tired. And my humidifier helps, but it's located in the bedroom, and I'm in the living room letting D get sleep. He is insisting that we go to church tonight (which I don't mind other than not feeling well), and that means that he doesn't get as much sleep, because he was out of the house pretty solidly until after 3 p.m. today.

D confessed to me that he ate my Phish Food. I made him buy me 2 to make up for it. He was wanting something sweet to eat, and it had been sitting there for a week. I'm still trying to get it through his head that I have some issues with people taking my stuff. That and he could have gone out to buy himself some ice cream if he had wanted to. Then I pointed out that we had pudding mix that he could have made. He did admit that he hadn't noticed the pudding and apologized several times for it. I didn't really care that much about the ice cream, it's the fact that he took mine. I don't ask for much, just let me eat something that was bought for me to eat. I'm slower at eating my sweets, not because I don't have a huge sweet tooth, but because I like making them last (it saves money too). I told him that he needs to learn that skill himself, which he agreed to. I'm not going to hold my breath on it happening very quickly though. I can deny myself sometimes to make something last, and that is something that everyone should probably learn (it's called delayed gratification). Then, when you get the payoff, it's so much better than if you hadn't waited. Now if I can just apply that to money matters again.

So, to recap, I dislike the rain and D needs to learn to not eat my sweets just because he ate all of his. I've got to find more stuff that I like that he doesn't (that's sweet) to keep around, because I know I'll always be able to eat it no matter how long I let it sit. So far, I've got Mounds candy bars on that list. And most canned fruit. That reminds me, I've got to look at prices on dried fruit when I go shopping at Wal-Mart again.

I'm going to go now, because I've got to get ready for church soon.

TTYL!

My Sister Is an Artist

I was able to check out some pictures my sister has taken (they are online), and she is an artist. And the descriptions with them are also a work of art. She has this beautiful and unique outlook on life, and I wish I could express myself half as well as she seems to sometimes. I would like to judge myself less and rely on my faith that anything can be beautiful. And she's not the only artist that makes me feel that way. She's just the artist that reminded me of it in the past half an hour (actually, in less time than that). And she's beautiful too. If I didn't love her as much as I do, knowing all her talents would make me severely jealous of her. But, because of my love, I just feel proud and want the world to know that she is an ARTIST! Someday, I think should could make money with her artwork, if she wanted.

I've always wanted to be an artist, but I sadly lack the skills to make a drawing look like very realistic (but I can make my drawings look like what they are supposed to be). I'm not too much better with clay, although I enjoy that greatly. The last time I tried doing much sewing, I didn't do great (although, I'm now interested in trying it with a sewing machine when we can get one). I can adequately repair buttons and hooks though. I'm not interested in poetry (I've tried, but I just can't seem to care). I love to read, but feel frustrated with trying to write books (writing takes much longer, and it frustrates me). I'm not a brilliant singer, and don't want to take lessons right now to get better. We can't afford a musical instrument right now, much less lessons for said instrument (although, someday I plan to learn to play the piano). I want to take dance lessons (with D, when we can afford them), and slightly regret not continuing with ballet and tap (not really my decision though). I get nervous about making speeches (I hate doing them, yet love going to school which means I have to keep making them...), and I don't know how much better I'd fare with acting, if I even have any skills in acting. So for now, I'm just relishing what art work I get to see, and dreaming of what artistic stuff I can do when I have more money.

I have a deep love of the arts, and I wish I could do something with them. But I will someday be happy to help supports the arts through donations of money. Because I can't do most of the arts, so I will enjoy them and encourage the artists who can do them.

TTFN!

I Guess I Should Amend My Last Post

I took off more than just Saturday, but I didn't intend to not post yesterday. I just went to bed without posting. Saturday, I slept 9 hours, showered, got a massage, went to church, took a bubble bath (which was nice), and watched DVDs with D. It was a nice day. Yesterday, D & I went to a birthday party for our niece. She is now 6, and shares a birthday with me. She apparently didn't realize that she was a year older on her birthday, she thought it didn't happen until her party. At the party, there was a pinata (for the little kids). They took a while trying to break it (with some aid from D's brother and a knife), but it didn't actually break until D's brother finally hit it. But one of the girls kept hitting it pretty well, and if she had been able to swing at it more than 2 times in a row, she probably would have broken it before too long.

I'm going to go now, because that's all I have to say for now.

TTFN!

Taking a Day Off

I'm just posting this to say that I'm taking Saturday, October 21, 2006 off. Enjoy your day, and I'll enjoy mine.

TTYL!

Thoughts as I Reflect Back

I'm nearing 200 posts. And that surprises me, because I didn't think I'd have enough to say to get past 5, and here I am still adding posts almost everyday. I find it interesting what all I've found to write about too. And it's not all just been me whining about what's going on (although, I have done that some too).

I decided to google myself, and discovered that if I put my name in quotes there were only 4 entries and they were all me. Sadly, my blog was number 4 on that list. I'm not sure why I decided to google myself, I guess I just wanted to see what would come up. If anyone wants to do that for themselves and leave me a comment with how many times they show up, I think it would be interesting to do.

I am now about half way done with The Case for Christ by Lee Strobel. Which isn't too bad, since I'm only reading about 10 pages a day. If I wasn't in school right now, I'd probably up that number to 30 or 40 pages a day. But I have enough to read with school work that 10 pages is good. Of course, when D and I went by the library this past weekend, I also checked out two books and have been reading some on one of those too. I'll probably spend some time Saturday (when I'm personally celebrating my birthday) reading them. Tomorrow, I'm doing homework most of the day. Not the most fun way to spend the day, but it gets me ready for next week, and for my project. Tomorrow will include some quality time with a highlighter.

Okay, I'm going to go back to relaxing and chilling out today.

TTYL!

Lack of Desire

Okay, so lately, I've been finding it hard to find the desire to do anything. Well, anything other than doing stuff online. Which is silly, but I think it's that I had gotten really used to my life, and it's all changed a lot in the past few months. My mind seems to want to take a vacation from everything I've been doing to relax. Which is frustrating, because I know that I need to be doing school stuff too. I get done what needs to be done, but I don't feel like I'm really giving it my all lately. And the housework, which I guess I really do have time to do if I would just do it, is piling up too. I'm getting frustrated with myself for pushing some things off on D that I should be doing myself (although, he cleaned the tub by his own prerogative yesterday).

I think that's enough sharing for today.

TTFN!

I Did Something Stupid Today

Okay, so I drove myself to school, no problems. But when I went to park, I accidentally hit the car next to mine. Now, the other car only had some paint on it (that can be buffed out) and Serenity has some paint to be buffed off and a small bit of damage to her light, so it was really a small accident. But it was the first accident I've ever had when driving (because I've been in accidents as a passenger before, not often, but it's happened). So I feel a little stupid. I left a note for the other driver, picked up the broken plastic (so I wouldn't damage a tire), and reported it to the campus police. D talked to the girl who owns it, and she said she was just going to buy some paint and cover it up (since I hadn't actually even dented the other car). There is a small part of me that wishes I had snapped some pics (if I had the camera in the car), but I doubt this will go to court. I was the only one in either car, and it was non-injury (I wasn't going fast, because I was pulling into a space). And I wasn't even all that late for my test in Business Law. I am however thinking of telling D that he gets to drive me to school every time I have a test in Business Law (okay, he's doing that next time, but what about the final?).

Other than that, I've just been keeping busy lately. I've got 53 pages to go through for my Government project, and I still need to find more on the anti side of my issue. Okay, 10 of those pages are actually the state laws on it, so that helps some. Now I just have a little over 3 weeks to go through all of this, find the other side, and organize a presentation that will cover 10-15 minutes and get people talking during that time. But I'll figure it all out.

I'm going to go take a warm bath now, because I could use it. And I've got to remember to take the (all natural, not habit-forming) muscle relaxants that I thought of earlier.

TTFN!

I Want to Thank My Dad

I want to post my thanks to my dad today. He has always been there for me in some form or fashion for all of my life. We may not have always had a close relationship, but he has always been there. And now, he lets me talk to him almost all the time on almost any subject (there are some that neither of us wants to talk about). He did a good job showing me how a parent should act, and even though I don't have kids yet, I've taken a lot of his advice to heart on how to deal with kids. And I've had the privilege to see him interact with my siblings, which has showed me more about parenting than I think either one of us knows, and shows me how much he cares for all of us.

At church tonight (I have church on Saturday night at 5 now, because our church has 6 services per weekend and we like this particular service), the message was about the relationship between parents and children. D and I could both see why we have problems with the parents we have problems with. And it was nice to think about the fact that we don't have problems with my dad or his wife. We don't talk to them about everything, but we could talk to them about almost everything. And it's nice.

I'm going to go. I think I'm supposed to help D with dinner (which he makes better than I do, I'm glad I taught him how to cook some) and then we're going to watch a movie.

TTFN!

Movie Watching

Tonight, D and I went to see a movie that I hadn't heard of before today. An odd occurrence for me, but both times I've seen movies I hadn't heard of, I've really enjoyed them, so I've got to do that more often. We went to see One Night with the King. If you can get to see it, I would recommend that you do so. It's the story of Esther. The only problem I had with it is that it is Americanized and Hollywoodized some. But it was really well done, and I do recommend it.

I got to see some friends that I haven't seen in a while, and it was nice. It reminded me that I need to see them more often, but the scheduling is hard to work out. But it was nice, and we got to talk to some of them for a little while afterwards. I like to do that.

I'm going to stop, because I'm supposed to be watching something with D and I want to give it my attention. But before I go, I would like to wish my best friend from high school Happy Birthday!

TTFN!

Finding Something to Say

I've been keeping myself busy the past few days. But that's not why I haven't posted. I can post, even when being busy. I just haven't had anything I've felt like sharing. At least, not at the time. And I don't know that I have anything to share now, but I felt the need to come and write to let everyone know that I'm still alive and kicking.

On Monday, we finally had our cable completely cut off. The only problem with that is we had no internet for a few hours, but that was fixed with the automated system and then we had internet access again. And I got an e-mail that told me that I was getting 3 free months on that e-mail address (it's a yearly subscription, for like $30) because there had been a few problems with the e-mail service as they were switching stuff over. I never really missed any service, but I don't mind getting 3 free months.

I am back on reading 10 pages of a book (not for school) a day. It is one of the 5 things I'm doing everyday. Of course, for the other 4 I picked stuff that was totally easy to do. 1. Get up. 2. Get Dressed. 3. Eat. 4. Kiss D. and, because my mind is bugging me, 5. Read at least 10 pages of a book a day. The book I'm currently reading is The Case for Christ by Lee Strobel. It is very compelling reading, and fascinating. He is a journalist, so he wrote it almost like an article for a paper. I'm actually trying to make it last longer, so I'm pretty much limiting myself to the 10 pages a day (okay, the end of the last section on page 10). I find it interesting how he studied this out for his own purposes and decided write a book on it, to help others.

I'm going to go read the comics and do my crossword now.

TTFN!

Setting Goals

Today, D and I set some goals of stuff to do before my birthday in 2007. Okay, mostly I set some goals for us, but they are goals that he was already wanting to set. We've got some big goals written down, but with D selling to groups for his business, we'll get them all done. After all, we get more money that way and we help more people too. D is thinking of leaving the glass plant without the buy-out from them if he meets his goals for this month, because he can make way more money doing this business full time than he ever could make working there, even if he had unlimited overtime to work there.

D went out of town for Friday night and most of the day on Saturday. I missed him greatly while he was gone, but I needed to stay home to work on my Government project. I got several articles to print off, but we need to buy ink for our printer first. But I'm getting somewhere. Tuesday, I'll be looking at the library at my college for books on my issue to get more information. I've even got a site saved with all the state's laws on my issue.

I'm going to go now.

TTFN!

The Problem with Caffeine

Okay, I don't know if I've posted on this before, but I don't have caffeine in my diet anymore. I cut it out, and haven't missed it. The only things that get put in my body that have caffeine in them are chocolate and Midol, neither of which have enough caffeine to affect my body. So, the few times I ever drink any soda with caffeine (like maybe 1 time every 3 or 4 months, maybe) it seems to keep me awake at night. Tuesday, I had to get some caffeine in my system to stay awake through my last class and the drive home. I didn't get to sleep until 3 that night, which lead me to sleep until late yesterday (after 1 in the afternoon, but I needed that 10 hours), which lead to me not getting to sleep until around 3 last night too. But I did get up to go to classes today, and got to school early.

I have my presentation for government on November 14th, so after that, I get to relax in that class and just watch everyone else's presentations (4 class periods after that) until it comes time for finals. So, after November 14th, I'll be feeling good, because I don't have anything too stressful after that for the better part of a month. I just have to get through the next month of school, and then it'll be so much easier.

Today, since my Sociology class was cancelled, I come home earlier than normal and started cleaning house some. My dishes are washing as I write. I'm enjoying relaxing some before I start doing research for my project, possibly tomorrow. Next Tuesday, I'll get a chance to visit the library at my college to do research for my project there, because class won't be meeting then.

I need to go find something to eat, so I'm going to do that.

TTFN!

You Never Hated Me, and You Never Will

I love the commercial that line comes from. The words that don't go with the tone of voice that was used. I look forward to that line each time I see it (which won't be for much longer). We don't have anything but basic and expanded and some all music channels currently. Our cable company will be turning off the rest sometime (they didn't tell D when), but don't need to come into the house to do so, apparently. D said that we'll take the boxes to the cable company tomorrow, so we just have cable until they cut us off. I am enjoying it while I can. D was smart enough to cancel our cable while I was at school so that I couldn't attempt to talk him out of it (not that we could afford it, so I wouldn't). He's trying to make this as easy as possible for me.

I don't really have anything else to say right now, so I'm going to go back to enjoying what little TV I've got left.

TTFN!

Growing Up is Hard to Do, But Sometimes It's Necessary

The past few days, when I haven't been thinking about school work (I'll get back to reading after I eat my lunch) I've been thinking about what I'm giving up and what I'm getting in return for giving those things up. Sometimes the thing I'm giving up seems to not outweigh what I get in return, but I know that I've got to give some things up for the short run to get something better in the future. All of that sort of leads to D and I giving up cable for a while. We just find that we don't have room in the budget for cable (any cable) right now. We are keeping our internet connection though. We actually need that for business reasons. We should, once we pay off some debts, be able to get back to where we are now with cable. But until then, we are sacrificing cable to keep from getting behind on our payments. And it hurts some, but I'd rather give that up than to get behind. And it's only for now.

The other things I've given up this year, seem to be related to family. I've given up most contact with what is going on with family (off the Internet), so that I don't have to put up with the thing I'm not talking about (which isn't really about who it started out about). It means that I don't have a connection with my siblings, and I don't know how they feel about me, except through my dad (who has been wonderful about telling me what he can). And as much as I hate that, and it feels like I've given up a lot, my life has become more peaceful. I'm not as stressed (except about school stuff, but that's just how I am). And the gains seem to far outweigh the losses, most of the time. I just want my family to know that I love them, and this whole thing is really about doing what's best for me.

My lunch is ready, so I'm going to go eat now.

TTFN!

I'm Not Dead, Just Buried in Reading

I've been spending time lately trying to catch up on my school reading, and seeing if I can get ahead any. It's been keeping me busy all day today. In fact, I only left my house to run one errand with D before coming back to hit the books again (and then I started reading them...). Government reading is not so interesting right now, and I have to think of some reaction to it. All I can come up with right now is that I don't care about the news media or public opinion. They just don't mean much to me right now. What I want to know is why electricity is so expensive and why it's so hot right now. I mean it's October for goodness sake. Where are the 70s, or even the 80s, right now? And how much will the electric bill be if I turn down the a/c to 75 for inside the house?

I need to get back to my reading, but I really don't want to anymore (I read 4 chapters today, and started a 5th. I feel done for a little while).

TTFN!