Buying Luggage

D and I went out today and bought luggage. We now have matching luggage, which is a first for us. But we really needed some before going to Florida next month. Now I just have to find a swimsuit. It's nice to say that. And the luggage is red, so it will stick out more than the old luggage we had (that didn't match).

I can also recommend Find Me Guilty for those who want to watch something funny. It stars Vin Diesel (now with hair!), and is based on a true story. I think that D liked the movies I picked this time at Blockbuster. My choices improved (of course, it wasn't any more expensive for us to pick bad movies than good ones, so we're trying more movies out now), at least in his opinion. We're trying more of the independent films now too.

Okay, I'm going to go now.

TTFN!

I Had Fun!

Okay, I would imagine everyone is a little tired of me talking about how I'm feeling physically. I'm a little tired of it too (or is it that I'm just tired?). Today, I had fun with my friend. We went out to eat (D too). We got to show her our new house (D was going to stop by and water, but the lady who is watching the place was there, so we got to show off the inside too). My friend and I watched a couple of movies (she napped during one, because she got up at 4 this morning). Then D took her home, and I rested because my energy drained while we watched the second movie. But I was up-right and out of bed from 9:30 a.m. until almost 6 p.m., so that was good.

I had lots of fun today, but it was nice to rest and relax after it was over. Since that is so much fun, I think I'll get back to it.

TTFN!

I'm Feeling Better

Okay, I admit, that isn't the truth. I'm feeling much, much better! And I didn't really do anything today. I did make it to Blockbuster (if you haven't seen Man of the Year, I recommend it). And I took a bath just a little while ago, but that's pretty much it. I did have a little time earlier during the day where I felt completely crappy, but most of the day I've felt pretty good. I did take it pretty easy, mostly because I have plans tomorrow with a friend from college (not last semester), and I wanted to ensure that I would be up for it. I watched most of The Price is Right (and remembered why it's only good if you don't feel good). I watched The People's Court, and heard it when the sound actually came through (or rather the static stopped).

I am looking forward to tomorrow. It will be nice to go celebrate my degree (D and I kind of celebrated it at New Year's), and she's promised to pay. We have absolutely no idea what we're doing except eating, but we'll figure something out. There is a part of me that's hoping it won't be walking around the mall, but that's mostly because there will be a ton of people there (since it'll be Saturday).

Okay, I'm off to do crosswords and day dream about tomorrow.

TTFN!

Blah, Blah, Blah

After finishing the colonics I can say one thing very definitely: I feel tired. My body seems to adjust to getting rid of toxins by wanting to sleep for a day and a half (or at least lay around and not do anything. And I'm running a slight fever (very slight). But D has told me that he is very proud of me (on all three days he's said that). And I do feel better, just tired.

I did discover, quite by accident the other day, that the TV in my bedroom gets some of the channels on it very fuzzily. I get about 5 channels that would come in much clearer with rabbit ears, but should help entertain me tonight while D is out. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be up to going by Blockbuster to help pick out movies for the ones mailed to us. And I think that and maybe some laundry will be all that I will do tomorrow.

I'm going to go now.

TTFN!

P.S.: I should have real television watching capabilities in about 2 months, I think.

I'm Feeling...

Well, I'm ready for it to be tomorrow, at the very least. I'm not feeling terrible, but I'm tired and don't feel all that wonderful right now. I do believe that I'm healthier now than I was two days ago, but I'm ready to be done. D and I have a Mr. Goodbar to split tomorrow to celebrate being done.

I really don't have anything else to say. The colonics have kind of taken up all my time and energy the past two days. Other than that, I've mostly just relaxed.

TTFN!

How to Describe the Past 24 Hours

I can sum it up in one word: interesting.

D's parents (read D's mom) decided to e-mail us (well, mostly D). There wasn't really an apology, not that I'm surprised, just that they have been trying to understand us. I'm mostly going to let D deal with that (he is going to e-mail them back, but I think I'll read what he has to say first).

We're moving forward on stuff with the house, which is all I'll say for that until it's a done deal.

And tomorrow, D and I are getting colonics. And then we're getting them Wednesday and Thursday too. I'm trying hard not to think about it. But it did include us drinking something called Magnesium Citrate (grape flavored) to empty us out. I didn't care for the flavor (seemed sour to me), but it wasn't horrible. I'm not sure that I'm going to want to eat much this week.

So, all I can do is think it's been interesting (at least if I want to remain thinking positive thoughts).

I'm going to go now.

TTFN!

Greetings From Arkansas!

D and I are spending a couple of days visiting my dad. It's nice. We got here close to noon and D helped plant trees in the back yard. I sat inside the house and stayed far out of the way, which is helpful in a different way. Then we visited for a while. My dad took us all out to eat. He told me that my burger (we went to get burgers) sounded good, and he would have to try it sometime (more so, the three cheeses on top, I would imagine). Then we came back to their house and have enjoyed visiting quite a bit for most of the evening.

It's nice to get out of the house for a little bit. And I always enjoy getting to spend time with my dad and step-mom. I'm pretty sure that D even enjoys himself fully while we are here, even if he wishes we would go somewhere and walk more (he's gotten much better about sitting for hours at a time since leaving his job).

I'm going to go read the book I've got off my dad's shelf. I'm getting close to finishing it.

TTFN!

Getting Closer to Moving

Yesterday, in my desire to write about what interesting things D had said during the evening, I forgot to mention the wonderful things that happened that day in regard to getting us closer to owning our next home. We found out that the contract should be faxed soon (it was supposed to come last night, but didn't). In fact, the current owners want to add a clause to it to protect us, they are willing to pay up to $1000 for any damages we find when we get ownership (within a certain time frame, I'm sure). Of course, there shouldn't be any damages since they've just remodeled and updated most of the house. And we have an appointment Monday afternoon to start signing papers for our loan. So, while there will still be a little time before we're moving, we're starting to see some headway (in less than a week).

Okay, I'm off to check the mail.

TTFN!

Things D has Said Tonight

"Come to bed soon dear, it's almost midnight." (less than a minute ago)

"I'm going to win." (while we were teaching other people how to play our game)

"I'm known in my house for..." (the ellipses were because I interrupted him with, you're known in our house?) "... getting out and rolling the six I need to win." (There are two parts to the board game. I've done well at getting out of the first part quickly. But then he gets out of that first part before I win the second part and lands on a square that wins him the game. Then he gloats about it.)

"Meredith hates it when I do that." (Talking about rolling the six to win. And who likes it when someone wins and then gloats?)

It's been a good, if somewhat long evening. A game that normally takes D and I about 2 hours to play took almost 4 tonight. Of course, there were 3 other people, 2 of whom had never played before. I'm somewhat tired, but happy to be back home. I'm thinking that we need to set a time to end next time we play, so that it doesn't go so long. I won, but the chairs started getting uncomfortable around 3 hours in.

I'm going to go. I'm debating if I want a heating pad on my back when I'm still really warm.

TTFN!

P.S.: D, I apologize for gloating most of the way home. You took it well. And I did tell you that I was going to win. ;)

I'm Just Me

D and I spent a little while hashing out a schedule for him. Mostly so that I'll know when I get to spend time with him and when I don't. It's nice, because it will help both of us figure out what to do each day. And I still get most of his attention at least two days a week (he's attempting to take two days a week off). I understand why he's working so hard right now, but it helps me when I know that I can pull him away from work at a designated time each day. That way we can achieve a better balance between him working to earn us money and us still having a relationship. The past week has pointed out to me that we haven't done that well.

So, starting fully next week, D and I will attempt to have a set schedule for at least him. I'll let you know how well that works.

Maybe tomorrow D and I could try to figure out how to post some pictures of my future kitchen.

TTFN!

Change Is in the Air

As I read blogs by my family and look at my own life, I realize that change is in the air. I have 3 cousins who are going to expand their families with children. And I learned that my dad and step-mom are looking to expand theirs (and mine) by adopting. D and I are looking at moving in a few months, and we are trying to get me pregnant. One of my pregnant cousins is moving too. All this change, all for the better, is happening somewhat quickly. And I'm still reeling a little bit from the idea of becoming a big sister again (I'm happy, just slightly shocked).

Tonight, we're helping one of the current owners of our soon to be new house return her rental car. Tomorrow morning, D will take her to the airport. We're hoping to hear from her about what is up with the contract, if she knows, because we haven't heard anything from her husband. And it seems odd that D and I are planning for having kids when I'm not pregnant yet. But it's good to plan ahead, and that's what we are doing. We've got a room picked out to be a nursery, when that actually becomes important. We've figured out where I'll set up the bills and all my other stuff (at the wet bar in the living room, because it will give me plenty of room to do so. We're making so many plans, and I'm ready to get things going on this.

And with all this change in the air, I'm suffering from some slightly mixed emotions. Happiness is always right on top, but there is this longing for things to stay the same, which commonly seems to accompany change for me. And once I move, I'll feel better and wonder why there was a part of me that didn't want the change.

So, for now, I'm excited for everyone else, and mostly excited for me too.

TTFN!

P.S.: I love my new house!!!!!

Today Has Been...

Today has been monumental, important, and exciting. Pretty much from the start.

I woke up, dragged myself out of bed, and talked to D about my dream. Then I checked e-mail and read comics/blogs until lunch. Then I watched a DVD with D about a company (real estate related). Then D and I went to the open house for the house we are in love with. And tomorrow, we'll have a contract on it and possibly the financing. I'm getting the big, beautiful house that I'm in love with! We'll be moving in the next few months.

Then, D and I traded in our movies at Blockbuster and watched Stranger Than Fiction. If you haven't seen this movie, you have to rent it. It starts off a little slow, but it is hilarious and moving. D started to enjoy it after we saw about the first 20 or 30 minutes of it. I enjoyed it from the beginning, but I think it was because I could tell it was going to be hilarious just as soon as some of the background got established. It's mostly a comedy, but there is some romance in it too. D and I have realized we can be less picky about what we rent now that it is one set fee a month (as long as we abide by three at a time, except when we have a coupon for a fourth).

So, I'm on an excited buzz for things working out really well right now.

Okay, I'm going to go talk to D some more, because we haven't spent much time talking the past two days.

TTFN!

My Day

Some days can't be described. Some days shouldn't be. I don't know which this one is, but I have no words for it. And that's not necessarily a bad thing.

I'm going to go watch American Beauty with D now.

TTFN!

Things I Don't Need to Re-Learn

D and I ordered a DVD from Blockbuster that was about improving your marriage. We figure that even a great marriage can be improved, because we are still human. We already knew and did everything that was talked about, and didn't really get anything from the DVD. Okay, I got a few interesting mental images, but that was about it. It's good information, but we already had it. And it echoed a lot of the information in His Needs, Her Needs, which D and I went over at Christmas and might go over again around our anniversary. I guess I could say that it helped me understand D a little better, but I already kind of knew this stuff already.

And watching the DVD kept me entertained while D was off at a real estate thing. Which is important (me being kept entertained... and D's real estate stuff too).

Okay, I'm going to go back to talking with D, because it's fun.

TTFN!

P.S.: D would probably encourage all men to talk and pay attention to their wives for at least 30 minutes a day. I agree with that sentiment.

Trying to Relax

All day today I have been trying to relax. D has decided to wait until his parents call before dealing with this situation, which I think has caused me to tense up. Which is why I've been trying to relax all day today. I also think it has something to do with me waking up several times last night.

While D and I were at the chiropractor's office today, I asked one the girls who works in the office how her weekend was. I kind of forgot that it was Thursday and not next Monday. I'm blaming it on, well, everything that has happened lately. That kind of thing is not normal for me, and I don't like it happening.

Well, I think I'll go to bed early tonight (early for me) and hopefully, I will get more and better sleep tonight.

TTFN!

Staying in Town

Remember how D & I were supposed to be going out of town today? On our way out, we get a call that the lady won't be able to show us the house after all. At least she called when we had only travelled across town. I would have hated to get halfway there and have her cancel on us. So, instead of spending 4 hours in a car and walking around a mall and a house (we left kind of early, which is only slightly unusual for us), we went and walked a couple of laps around a local park (the same one from Sunday and Monday). Other than seeing a lot of parked cars there, nothing really happened.

This afternoon, while letting the sunshine in, we watched Little Miss Sunshine (which I kind of liked, but D didn't) and Rocky II (which D watched and I kind of didn't). We actually spent most of the day with the curtains open and the sun lighting the house. It was nice.

My best friend from high school, and still my favorite girl friend, called this evening and we talked for over an hour. We caught up with each other and I enjoyed it. I did do way too much of the talking though and I apologize for that (she reads this blog at least occasionally). I sadly think that way too many of our conversations happen that way (me over-talking and not letting her talk much). And she still seems to enjoy talking to me, so the cycle continues.

Okay, I've got to get back to my crossword puzzles. They won't solve themselves.

TTFN!

Getting Nothing Done

I need to stop mentally making plans, because when I do something interferes with my plans (like D deciding to watch DVDs with me all afternoon). Today, I planned on folding laundry, but instead I watched 6 episodes of Veronica Mars. It made for a fun afternoon, but I still kind of wish I had gotten the laundry folded. And I feel silly, because I should have folded laundry while we were watching.

Tomorrow, D and I are taking a (hopefully) brief trip out of town tomorrow. We should be back tomorrow evening. We're going to look at a house to possibly invest in.

I'm going to go. I'm trying to pay attention to Out of Reach, and can't seem to while writing.

TTFN!

I Dream of Semi-Famous People

This morning, I had a rather interesting dream. I dreamt I was at a Hollywood premier for some animated movie that had Ben Affleck, Jennifer Gardner, and their daughter Violet doing voices. Except Violet Affleck is too young to be doing that yet. But in my dream she was around 8. And I was talking down to her. Which is sad, because I don't think I would do that. Not that I talked to either of her parents in my dream. Because I apparently dream about the offspring of celebrities.

Then I go for 30 minute walks with D at a local park. We're trying to get in shape, and are working our way up to hour long walks outside on sunny days. We've spent two days, and walked more today than yesterday. Oddly, when we were on our walk yesterday was when D's parents called. But nothing bad happened today. We just walked and enjoyed being outside, the sun even came out from behind the clouds.

I'm being asked what I want to watch, so I guess I should get back to paying attention to D.

TTFN!

Feeling Better

D and I have talked a lot this afternoon about the message from his parents. We know what we want to say to them, but not when the right time to say it will be. We also decided what we want our wills to say when we need to update them because of having children. It's been an interesting day.

On the plus side, I'm feeling much better now. Ice cream, attention from D, and getting out of the house was apparently all I needed to feel good again.

I'm going to go back to talking with D. We have interesting and fun conversations.

TTFN!

Interesting Messages

We got a message from D's parents today. They were offering us a chocolate bunny for Easter. They apparently thought they had hung up and said some bad things about me. We need to have a discussion with them about it later, but we aren't ready for that yet. And not surprisingly, I am upset right now. It did point out to me very clearly that not all of D's family has accepted me as part of the family (not that I was wondering). For that matter D hasn't really felt all that much like part of the family for a long time either.

I've got nothing else for now.

I hope everyone else has a much better Easter than we're having.

TTFN!

My Thoughts

I try not to fill my posts with political stuff. Mostly because I find most things political rather boring. And I don't want to argue with others about my beliefs as they pertain to our government. D, who is kind of reading this as I type it, pointed out that I don't want to discuss politics. And he's partially right. I'm not likely to have someone write me and change my mind about anything, especially if it was horribly misspelled and I was hardly able to decipher it (I've seen enough stuff online to know that most people write that way).

Having said that, I am fully supportive of our troops. I know that they are voluntarily serving our nation and that impresses me. I know that I am not cut out for that kind of life, even though the army really wanted me to join after seeing my ASVAB scores. I am proud that two of my cousins joined the military and served, even though they knew that they could be putting their lives on the line to do so. They were willing to fight so that I could continue to enjoy my rights. And nicely, the last I heard, they are safely at home with their families now.

I am frustrated that those rights they are fighting for are rights that some people don't feel I should fully use. I should be careful about what I say about abortion or gay rights because I might offend somebody, despite my right to free speech. But, if I say that I'm offended by someone talking bad about my religious beliefs, which are also constitutionally protected, then I am being thin-skinned and they have a right to free speech. Where are those lines drawn? And why should I have to be the one to suffer when those lines shouldn't exist?

Just something to think about.

TTFN!

Forgetting and Remembering

The mind is a funny thing to me.

I have memories buried deep within my brain I would like to remember, but can't seem to. Unimportant things, like how to make a parabola on a graphing calculator (I know, I could look that up online, but I haven't cared to so far). There are important memories lost too, like playing with my siblings, which I now can only see pictures of. I long to remember those times.

I have other memories that I would love to forget but they seemed burned into my brain, branding it forever. Most of those memories are bad. They cause sadness, heartache, and I hate them. And the fact that they are crystal clear hurts me even deeper.

So, I am trying to forge many new memories to take the place of both the forgotten memories and the ones I long to forget. And maybe someday I'll forget the bad memories, or at least I won't remember them as vividly, and I'll have wonderful stories to tell my children and grandchildren.

Right now, the stories I can tell the most vividly are the ones that show how I was hurt by someone who was supposed to be able to love me no matter what (not memories of D, he's provided me some wonderful ones already). Stories that I don't want to tell because of the emotions they bring out in me. Stories I doubt that I'll ever share here. The important thing is that I'm not focusing on those stories, but on the present and the future. I can't change the past and I like who I am today, which is of course based on the past. But I will keep striving to forget the hurts and find the happiness. Because when I have done as much of that as I can, then I will be truly free.

TTFN!

Nifty, Keen, and Neato

In case you are wondering, the title describes how I am feeling. Mostly. Okay, so I'm ready for some things to happen (like getting our refund from the state). D is going to go tomorrow and mail off the tax returns, since we need to weigh them to make sure they have sufficient postage.

We rented 5 movies from Blockbuster earlier. After finishing off disk 3 of season 2 of Veronica Mars, we went by Blockbuster to trade in our movies. We also had coupons for two free rentals (1 from the old plan that we aren't going to renew because we don't need to, and 1 from the online plan because it rocks!). We've watched 2 of the movies since we got back home (Ultraviolet and Diamonds Are Forever). Our TV and DVD player have gotten quite the workout today.

A refund that we are supposed to get is hinging on a company finding the package that should have been delivered to them last Thursday. So, hopefully that will be straightened out soon, because I will relax a lot more when that money is back in our hands.

Speaking of tax returns (I was in the first paragraph anyway), D's old job had an odd way of withholding taxes. They kept underpaying the federal government while overpaying the state. So, I got to write a check to pay the IRS (which was nice to do without wondering about the funds), and will be looking for the check from the state starting way before it is ever likely to get here (I'm on the ball when it comes to looking for checks in the mail, even when they are unexpected).

Okay, I'm going back to talking with D.

TTFN!

A Brief Synopsis of My Day

Today, my room got finished being painted. I helped remove the tape from the earlier stripes. I ate pizza, which is not what is on my mental list of approved foods. I got paint in my hair. I watched disk 2 of season 2 of Veronica Mars. D realized that he forgot to go get the business taxes for his business done. I took a bubble bath (run by D) and the water slightly burned my knees some.

And now, I'm going to go relax and talk with my husband, because I didn't get enough talking in with the friend who painted my room.

TTFN!

You Learn Something New Everyday

D and I just finished watching the G.I. Joe movie. I learned that BET makes me think of the cable channel, not that I ever watched it when I could. It made the whole movie unintentionally funny. I kept giggling when they would mention the Broadcast Energy Transmitter because they would call it the BET. And it made it funnier that both sides wanted the BET. I think it bothered D some throughout the movie.

I also learned that I need to take care of my filing better this year. Trying to do our taxes pointed that out very well. D is going to talk with the CPA who is doing them again tomorrow to hopefully give her the rest of what we have.

I'm going to go. I've got comics to read.

TTFN!

Let the Sunshine In

Yeah, I'm not going to do any April Fool's posts. I think they are silly. Fun to read but silly.

D and I have opened up curtains and windows in our house to let the sunshine in (and to get fresh air). Since the clouds are currently away, it is a good time to enjoy the sun. I've missed it a lot.

Okay, I'm going back to my relaxing and enjoying the sun.

TTFN!